We keep getting asked if we’re ready for our upcoming trip to the D.R. where we will meet and adopt our daughter, Raquel. My answer is that we are “ready, not ready” and for the most part, I get a chuckle or a smile and the conversation continues. Of course I am excited. I have been “expecting” this child MUCH longer than the typical pregnancy. We have paid a lot more for this process than the typical pregnancy. We have had (A LOT) more education for this subsequent chance at parenthood than the typical parenting/birthing classes. Our lives have been examined under international microscopes and we have been granted permission to adopt our girl. Hayes is excited about becoming a sister. The other day, her name was even accompanied by her (soon-to-be) new last name on a document. It was beautiful. All of this makes me READY.
So how on earth could I possibly NOT be ready? We’ve been given a ballpark travel date. It’s close – really close. We’re waiting for it to be confirmed or changed. We can’t make travel plans until we have a date and the longer it takes for that date to be confirmed, the less time we have to make all of the arrangements we will need to make. Our expected time in the D.R. is 4 – 6 months. We will be leaving our home in someone else’s care. We will be leaving our friends, support network, Bible study groups for months. We have to afford living expenses both here and there and I do not have time to bake another 50 pans of cinnamon rolls! We are headed to a foreign country to adopt a child who may not even care we exist for a long time. We are adopting a child who may have special needs beyond our scope of current knowledge and be sent in search of answers. I’m not going to lie, my least favorite part is that I have only been able to pack one suitcase – but all of this combined makes me NOT READY.
I can only try to begin to describe the numerous emotions I run through every hour of everyday. Happy, scared, stressed, excited… ready… not ready. We covet your prayers. We can’t wait to share more of our story with you. Be on the lookout for more exciting news. In the meantime, please pray that all of the details come together and that we are wise with our decision-making. Thank you all for every ounce of support you have already given us.
Eat… Pray… Adopt.